The Dicks of Hazard OUT NOW!

Just got an update that The Dicks of Hazard has now been released. check out the trailer

www.thedicksofhazzard.com/preview.wmv

Missing you

I swear i don't know them

Ugh. Some of my friends are all going out wearing t-shirts they made with the name of their little group on them. I am thoroughly embarrassed. i am not going within 70 miles of them. funnier thing is. they made them for a Tuesday night bar night, not for Halloween, not for a huge event, just for a bar night so they could all go out wearing shirts that proclaimed how bitchy their group is. and as someone who knows them, THEY ARE WAY TO BITCHY, STAY AWAY. Yeah i know its not often that i rant about my own friends on here, but come on they made their own t-shirts with their group name on them. Why is going out to a bar like a bowling league now? Can you imagine all 5 of them standing around in a circle with drinks in hand, with matching group t-shirts, thinking they are the shit. Ugh I'm staying in. Or maybe i should get an even larger opposing group together. We could all carry protest signs, protesting them and their bitchiness, and their degradation of our community. now that would be a bar night worth going to. Cheers to that.
OK fine, while I'm at it. What the hell is up with having multiple gym memberships. I mean come on, do you really need more then one. I now have three friends that have more than one gym membership each. one is on steroids, the other two aren't even in that good of shape. Is a gym membership the new pet rock?

New AD Campaign

I Love my life

jam k: "how are you, studboi?

Marc: hey there! im good

Marc: whats up with you?

jam k: chillen, lookin around

jam k: missin ur huge cock

Marc: lol thats funny i read that really fast and all i got was "im looking around for your huge cock" lol

jam k: how was LA?

Marc: la was great

jam k: not so far from the truth

Marc: lol. yeah so when are we going to hang out again?

jam k: any time buddy

Marc: hot

jam k: haven't had a top as hot as you. . .well, since you

Marc: right on. well im saving up for a cum shooting contest on Wednesday

Marc: so it will have to be after that

jam k: damn too bad

jam k: i bet u'll win

jam k: where's the contest?

Marc: i hope so, with a bucket of cum ready to go flying, maybe i can break a guines book record. do you think they keep records for sex related stuff?

jam k: hmm they must somewhere

jam k: wish it were flyin ..."

Funny Shit! Me in High School

My My My how our lives change so fast. Yup that's me and my girlfriend at the county fair. Yes i admit it: I'm a former dork and farmer. I am still playing with animals.

Heading to LA this weekend

AHH I cant fucking wait. Literally! I get to hang out with Alex. YUMM. and spend some time with a few old friends. and of course hit up West Hollywoods finest. on Sunday evening i will be stopping by The Abbey and HERE Lounge. Come have a drink.

http://www.herelounge.com
http://www.abbeyfoodandbar.com

My Funny Mom

I love getting emails from Mom. She lives in Mississippi. This one i got yesterday. My car turned over 100,000 miles. and Christmas? ugh. DEAR GOD, THANK YOU FOR KEEPING ME 3,000 MILES AWAY. Christmas!!! Its the beginning of October. The funnier part is: they send a check for Christmas every year, no matter what i ask for. but every year way before thanksgiving they wanna know what i want. Well at least its certain that mental illness runs in my family. So then today she calls to follow up on her email and she asks again "So what do you want for Christmas?" Oh and their trip out to California in January, yup they already have the tickets and are bugging me about getting them a hotel room for them.

Subject: pic for you
Date: Tue, 10 Oct 2006 18:56:59 -0500

Look history has been made.
Can't wait to see you. What do you want for Christmas?

Luv you bunches
mom

Another one in REHAB

It seems now that everyone i use to party with is going to rehab. Just got an email today from an old friend saying he is on his way to inpatient rehab. It has been very interesting watching all of us in our own way and own time have slowly given up on the partying days. Made me recall how i got started and how i got away.
Contrary to popular belief i use to be a prude. HUGE STUCK UP/ UPTIGHT RICH ASSHOLE. i think that describes most of my behaviour prior to indulging in my first illegal drug. I started with E, not pot just E. It was also my first time at the legendary Club Universe in San Francisco. I remember the evening as running around with my hag introducing her to everyone as Madonna. I some how got it in my head that this fat bitch was Madonna. HALLARIOUS. Then somehow everyone at my work at the time was all about it. Applebee's Restaurant. In fact on many many occasions many of the servers would all take a half hit of E on a busy night to make it fun. OH YEA, ROLLING ON E WHILE WAITING TABELS AT APPLEBEE'S. Jhezuss. what the fuck where we thinking. It was also the time that Red Bull came out. Yeah add on two cans of that. Whew did i give good service.
From there to my 21st birthday is a blur. Living in SF i went all out for my 21st. Three day party with VIP rooms in the top clubs on the west coast. Three fucking days LA to SF all around like a fucking fool. Well bad planning, the final day of the festivities was my actual birthday, actually St. Patrick's Day too. Well by the time i got myself and my entourage out of my house it was 3pm and i pasted out at the Bar on Castro, with a frozen Cosmo in hand. Classy! From there my cocain addiction developed.
Until i moved to New Orleans is another blur of way to much sex, drugs, and drama. New Orleans actually signaled my recovery. I was getting evicted from my fabulous ocean view studio apartment in SF. So i went a running. FAR, FAR away from all my partying friends. Now bout two years later and back in SF, Happy and the furthest from the party scene as humanly possible. Yeah i know a porn star that doesn't do drugs isn't very sexy, but hey i was over it. Since my dramatic move to New Orleans almost all of my friends from my partying hay day have all entered some form of recovery or another, well all accept one. We are still waiting for him. I don't believe I have any regrets besides doing Tina. I have made it out with only a few permanent injuries. I got my life back. As boring now as it is, I love it. I am proud to have been through all of it and relived to have made it out.

I have been Scammed

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Castro Street Fair

UGh. more like the parade of ex tricks of cracked out past. yup. that's it. i was there for less than an our. saw way to many old fuck buddies and went home. the only good part about the fair was the walk home. A thousand times different from the week before. they really should just cancel the Castro fair. if i wanted a bunch of crappy nick knacks i would go to the east bay. If i wanted to be harassed by HIV organizations i would volunteer again. What is it with these orgs. the people they should be reaching out to "IE: Me a hooker" they can't, because they are so out of touch with the reality of the sex industry. And no i'm not just babbling, Ive volunteered for The Stop AIDS Project, and others for many years. in-fact i volunteered for SAP way back when i first starting having sex. before drugs, before porn, before it all. if they could not impact there weekly volunteers enough to not engage in risky behavior, then how can the impact a person they harass on the street to take a survey. FYI those surveys they ask you to take about your sex life are just to get them money. each one that is filled out they receive money for from the CDC and other agencies. In fact when i was on the other side of the clipboard, i spent a fair amount of time filing out bogus forms just to help meet their quotas. I'm sure they have saved many lives, but they haven't saved mine. I still support SAP and various other org today and will continue to, because i do believe they make an impact of the naive.
I believe they should focus more on the positive community rather than the negative. They do a much better job educating positive people, then they do negative people.

UGH, Now this week is crazy and it hurts bad

I'm shaking my head at the opening line of my last weeks post. the one i wrote 36 hours ago. Fuck i hate how life can just sweep in and change everything. everything. And why does it keep happening to me. I'm getting really tired of waking up. Seems I'm either on top of the world or in the worst possible situations feeling awefull. I wish this crazy life of mine would just balance out. give me some peace.


when the hour is upon us.
and when our beauty surely gone.
no you will not be forgotten.
and you will not be alone.
no you will not be alone.
- thanks rob t, IL put my faith in that. for it is all i have left to give.

Folsom Street Fair 2006

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I QUIT SMOKING, A letter to my old friend

Dear Marlboro man,

Goodbye my friend. You know I'm not a quit-er, but you just had to go. i was growing old of your awful smell. my teeth are about to jump ship in protest. As for my lungs, well they went on strike years ago. Sorry kid your just not worth it anymore. you still are very very sexy, and i know it will be hard not to put you in my mouth, but i have to. I'm getting to old for your bullshit. It is bitter sweet as you are one of my last imperfections. So FUCK OFF! Go annoy someone else for a change. I will even drop you off at a near by high school if you'd like. I'll keep the fond memories but nothing else please. Please take all your shit with you.

Thanks
L


now where did i put that brownie? HMMM

Burning Man 2006

Whew! What a Trip!
Drama Sex Injuries Art Intoxication

that is if i had to fit my experience into five words. but i don't, hold on its a helluva story.

So every year my best friend and i go camping at an event called Burning Man. we have been going there for over four years now. Burning Man takes place on the Black Rock Desert in northern Nevada. a incredible desolate and remote canvas is the stage to an amazing experience year after year. This year however was much much less peaceful and more dramatic.

This year we decided it would be fun to pull our burner friends together. some of which include a porn star (me), a law student, a crystal addicted former lawyer, and his trick, my roommate's ex-boyfriend, and his crack addicted friend, a DJ, a boring wanna be model, and a few others in between. as well as a group of 30 or so from new zealand who where just using our extra reserved space. So yeah, a big fucking mess. Why on earth did i ever think that a group like that could ever be respectful of one another enough to get through 9 days in one of the most harsh environments in north America. Well we went anyways.

Lets start with the GOOD:
ME: so i decided that i would design and build a shade structure or our group. Brilliant! yes indeed. the structure worked perfectly and even had a few unexpected benefits. See below of my design drawings. I also was supper excited to get a Mohawk. i have wanted to get one for years, and I've always worked into too conservative environment to do it. But this year FUCK-EM. i can get a new damn job with my new fantastic hair.

SEX: ahh god i love sex. i wish it was the only thing i knew how to do. I hooked up with about 5 guys throughout the week. Compared to 9 days in the default world that would be a slow week. But it was great. Sex is so much more amazing out there. One guy in particular was a lot of fun to be with. Michael came with his friend steve from Portland. When they arrived and he stepped out of the car i knew i was in trouble. it was my understanding that this boy he brought was for him. All i could think about at that time was how i was going to have to try and keep my horny hands off of him. He is supper hot. Here is a few pics i stole from his myspace. YUMM LICK!



















Although extraordinary hot and our sexual energy was on fire, i sure am glad that's all over with. we was a bit of a party boy, and me wanting nothing to do with party drugs anymore, it got a little frustrating. i absolutely hate it when i see a beautiful guy that is way too cracked out. Pisses me off to no end. Well we had our fun a few times. in-fact the first time we hooked up, we went all the way out to the perimeter fence mid afternoon. and that ended up being the first time he has hooked up outdoors. So of course i made sure the next time we were outside again. Yup right there laying on the hammock. HOT! HOT! HOT! god damn. So as the week comes to a close. "Apparently" as i heard second hand. Steve the guy who brought him flipped out in front of everyone, pissed off that he was spending all his time with me and not him. UGH! whatever.
Other sex encounters included a aged Dom guy. a hot burner boy, and i don't really remember what the other guys where all about.

ART: the art this year was amazing. my favorite has to be the Belgian waffle and the flaming lotus girls.

INTOXICATION: wow, so i remember most nights, not all of them. since all i have left to party with these days is a little booze, whip its, and pot i certainly took them to the extreme while there. I am quite proud of myself though. i was offered countless times many various substances and i still was good. huh i guess that phase in my life really is over.

BAD:

INJURIES: Well with 5 of our camp-mates getting injured, it sure was a lot of fun. Wow from a girl falling off our bike ramp and scaring her face and breast, to severe arm injuries, to a tweak-er running into a coat rack and nearly taking out his eye. Our camp was full of injuries. we even had a white board up listing all of our camp injuries and at the bottom: "5 hours since last injury". i even had a bit of a scare when i ate some pancakes tainted with oranges, as i am hyper allergic to oranges. As well as a severe tooth ace. So yes we had a lot of trips to the medical tent.

DRAMA: I am an idiot. yes i am. i knew when i was leaving for our trip that it was going to be a big mess, and I still went. Prior to the trip our group basically took sides in a huge battle over respect for our camp mates. and it just escalated on the playa. although most everyone else's drama quited down significantly, mine went through the roof. As previously mentioned i apparently stole this guys trick. I also had an awe full run-in at the sex club Jiffy Lube. this guy started calling me a racist and asshole because i would not let him suck my dick. He was annoying, why on earth would i encourage him to be around me. so i was a dick when he kept trying to talk to me while we where in the sex club. which if you have never been, is very bad sex club edicate. So he starts a yellin. ugh. in the end i told him to fuck off that i have probably had sex with more black guys than the number of times he has touched his own dick. None the less he still with all his ranting and yelling was unable to keep me from hooking up with someone. FUCK OFF DUMBASS! Yet there is more. Jason the ex-boyfriend of my roommate (female). What a fucking selfish son of a bitch. I know i am very narcissistic and self centered but this guy blew me out of the fucking water. wow! i have never experienced someone so selfish. So of course we went to blows, and one time almost physically. I'm not one to physically fight someone, but he sure did get me stirring.

I'm sure that after i decompress the negative memories will fade faster than the good ones.

Overall it was certainly another life changing experience. although isn't everything life changing.

Here are a few more pics

Dore Alley and more

Fanfuckingtastic!

So I arranged to have that hot boy Alex cross to stay with me in SF when Dore Alley street fair was happening. We have literally been fucking three times a day. so not me, not the 3 a day but with the same person? WOW! I'm shocked too. its been a lot of fun. I have really enjoyed hanging out with him, maybe a little to much. Alex im sure had a great time. Although im sure it is indeed just porn love it sure has been exciting. I am doubtful that anything else will develop from it besides the occasional "when-ever your in town" deal. Looking at my blog it sure has been a great year of hot boys. One right after another. Who is next?

Dore Alley was a lot of fun, mostly just because watching Alex see all this caous for the first time was really refreshing. I keep saying I'm not jaded, but god damn I forgot what it was to have experiences like that. Am I getting bored? Is it time to move to another city? Am I ready for NYC? Some of the thousands of questions I'm asking myself.

Am I just getting bored? Hard to imagine, but yes I get very bored. very bored. Things that would seem absolutely unbelievable to someone else is quite normal and boring for me now. HHMMM what or whom will be my next form of entertainment.





UPDATE: OK so the "when your in the city lets fuck" turned out to be one of my top sexual experiences. Alex is so fucking hot, still! i don't know what the fuck is up, but god damn i love having sex with that guy. When I'm not with him, I'm fine. when i am with him i cant think about not being with him. our sexual chemistry is threw the roof.

I had sex with a 460lb man

Yes the headline is true. I consider myself to be a very sexually free person. I'm not however one to say "IL try at least everything once" THAT'S NOT ME. However I was approached by this guy who started to tell me his story about being fat and his sexual lifestyle that makes him fat. Myself being a person who is fascinated by how vast and complex people's sexual desires are, decided why not. The fetish is called "feeder-ism". Id like to think of myself as in expert in sex, so I was clueless about this fetish, so whats a little study session hurt. After all KRON 4 news did call me "very sexually liberated".

HERE is how he described how it works: in my own words

There are Gainers and Feeders. The gainers are people who have discovered, like someone coming to terms with there homosexuality, that they get sexual, and emotional pleasures from being extremely overweight and getting encouraged by "feeders". Feeders are people who are typically very skinny and enjoy, or at least participate in the encouraging the gainer to gain more weight. Gainers can never get big enough.

During the sexual experience a gainer loves to be humiliated about their weight by the feeder and constantly told that they are fat, and various derogatory comments about the fat. They love to have there rolls played with more than there dick. The really pleasure for them is the emotional state as well that the pushing, grabbing, and touching of large fat rolls. The gentlemen I hooked up with has a waist of 68 inches mine is a mere 32 inches. WOW He was huge. Although my experience with it did not involve actual food during it, I could certainly see how it would play in. He did really enjoy my dick sliding between his rolls, WOW that was gross.

I know most of you are disgusted by this, Myself, I was fascinated. He really really really enjoyed me telling him awful things and loved me pushing on his giant stomach with my cock. Although IM sure that was something I will probably not do again, for my own personal ethical reasons, it was fascinating. To hear this guy talk about coming to terms about being a gainer in the same way the average gay person would describe coming to terms with there own homosexuality. He also shared his desire and pitfalls to living this lifestyle. This was not some slob of a guy. He is very wealthy, he has an amazing house in SF and I'm sure is very well respected in his field of work, what ever that may be.

I also found some links on the subject encase your interest is peeked and you need a great dinner conversation piece.

http://www.frappr.com/gainers
http://www.gordos.org/30english/20spanish/12listados/7feeders.html
http://www.fatnats.net/

*pic is not of the guy i hooked up with

1 Year after the FIRE that dystroyed my house

sad day, 1 year. here is the article from that day.
My Address was 3330 16th Street. The Grey one on the left.



SAN FRANCISCO 5-alarm fire leaves 66 people homeless Several apartment buildings damaged in 16th Street blaze
Chuck Squatriglia, Steve Rubenstein, Chronicle Staff Writers
Saturday, July 9, 2005

Residents of four San Francisco apartment buildings damaged by a five-alarm fire across from Mission Dolores hunkered down in temporary shelters Friday as firefighters mopped up what authorities called the worst blaze the city has seen since 2002.
Six residents were treated for minor smoke inhalation from the blaze, which erupted about 2:35 a.m. and left 66 people homeless. The wind-whipped fire started on the second floor of 3330 16th St., then it spread to other floors and adjacent buildings, fire Capt. Pete Howes said.
The fire caused about $8.6 million in damage to property and possessions, Howes said, adding that the roof of a fifth building was also damaged.
Some 120 firefighters responded from as far away as the Sunset District. The first firefighters to arrive quickly summoned additional help, and the fifth alarm was sounded about 3:10 a.m.
Residents of the buildings awoke to the sound of smoke alarms and a raging fire.
"It was a wall of black smoke," said Chris Beahn, 34, who lives on the top floor of 3334 16th St., one of the damaged buildings. "After I opened the front door, I couldn't see a foot in front of me, so I closed the door."
Beahn put on his shoes and jacket before grabbing his bag, rushing to the back door and scrambling to the roof. From there, he dashed to the rooftop of an adjacent building, where a firefighter led him down a ladder.
Paul Camarillo and his partner, Vincent Escareno, both 40, were asleep in their ground-floor apartment at 3320 16th St. when Camarillo awoke to a thundering sound.
"I knew there was a fire," he said. "I heard screaming. I looked out the back window and saw embers raining down from the sky."
They grabbed their year-old Maltese dogs, Tictac and Chicklet, and a couple of Escareno's paintings before running for the door.
"I saw a ball of flame out the back window," Escareno said.
As they rushed out, firefighters rushed in, ordering residents to evacuate. Firefighters rescued two women and two children from the third floor of 3320 16th St. as the wind pushed the flames across the building's flat tar roof.
"It went very quickly," Howes said. "The wind conditions there are really crazy."
Mission Dolores and its basilica, and neighboring Congregation Sha'ar Zahav synagogue, were not damaged because the wind blew the flames away from the buildings.
The Red Cross is housing 17 people chased from the buildings.
In addition to people, firefighters rescued a number of pets from the fire.
"I can't even count them," Howes said. "There were firefighters walking out with cats, rabbits, dogs."
One of the rabbits, a brown-and-white bunny named Conor, belongs to resident Ashley Lincoln, who had been forced to flee the blaze without him. She pleaded for firefighters to go back inside and rescue the rabbit.
A firefighter went inside the smoky apartment, found Conor munching rabbit food from his bowl and carried him to safety.
Some of the rescued animals were being housed at the city's Animal Care and Control shelter.
Investigators will spend days sifting through debris to determine where and how the fire started, Howes said.
Authorities said the fire was the largest in San Francisco since the 2002 Cannery fire near Fisherman's Wharf. That five-alarm fire started in the historic Haslett Warehouse and caused millions of dollars in damage.