I had sex with a 460lb man

Yes the headline is true. I consider myself to be a very sexually free person. I'm not however one to say "IL try at least everything once" THAT'S NOT ME. However I was approached by this guy who started to tell me his story about being fat and his sexual lifestyle that makes him fat. Myself being a person who is fascinated by how vast and complex people's sexual desires are, decided why not. The fetish is called "feeder-ism". Id like to think of myself as in expert in sex, so I was clueless about this fetish, so whats a little study session hurt. After all KRON 4 news did call me "very sexually liberated".

HERE is how he described how it works: in my own words

There are Gainers and Feeders. The gainers are people who have discovered, like someone coming to terms with there homosexuality, that they get sexual, and emotional pleasures from being extremely overweight and getting encouraged by "feeders". Feeders are people who are typically very skinny and enjoy, or at least participate in the encouraging the gainer to gain more weight. Gainers can never get big enough.

During the sexual experience a gainer loves to be humiliated about their weight by the feeder and constantly told that they are fat, and various derogatory comments about the fat. They love to have there rolls played with more than there dick. The really pleasure for them is the emotional state as well that the pushing, grabbing, and touching of large fat rolls. The gentlemen I hooked up with has a waist of 68 inches mine is a mere 32 inches. WOW He was huge. Although my experience with it did not involve actual food during it, I could certainly see how it would play in. He did really enjoy my dick sliding between his rolls, WOW that was gross.

I know most of you are disgusted by this, Myself, I was fascinated. He really really really enjoyed me telling him awful things and loved me pushing on his giant stomach with my cock. Although IM sure that was something I will probably not do again, for my own personal ethical reasons, it was fascinating. To hear this guy talk about coming to terms about being a gainer in the same way the average gay person would describe coming to terms with there own homosexuality. He also shared his desire and pitfalls to living this lifestyle. This was not some slob of a guy. He is very wealthy, he has an amazing house in SF and I'm sure is very well respected in his field of work, what ever that may be.

I also found some links on the subject encase your interest is peeked and you need a great dinner conversation piece.

http://www.frappr.com/gainers
http://www.gordos.org/30english/20spanish/12listados/7feeders.html
http://www.fatnats.net/

*pic is not of the guy i hooked up with

1 Year after the FIRE that dystroyed my house

sad day, 1 year. here is the article from that day.
My Address was 3330 16th Street. The Grey one on the left.



SAN FRANCISCO 5-alarm fire leaves 66 people homeless Several apartment buildings damaged in 16th Street blaze
Chuck Squatriglia, Steve Rubenstein, Chronicle Staff Writers
Saturday, July 9, 2005

Residents of four San Francisco apartment buildings damaged by a five-alarm fire across from Mission Dolores hunkered down in temporary shelters Friday as firefighters mopped up what authorities called the worst blaze the city has seen since 2002.
Six residents were treated for minor smoke inhalation from the blaze, which erupted about 2:35 a.m. and left 66 people homeless. The wind-whipped fire started on the second floor of 3330 16th St., then it spread to other floors and adjacent buildings, fire Capt. Pete Howes said.
The fire caused about $8.6 million in damage to property and possessions, Howes said, adding that the roof of a fifth building was also damaged.
Some 120 firefighters responded from as far away as the Sunset District. The first firefighters to arrive quickly summoned additional help, and the fifth alarm was sounded about 3:10 a.m.
Residents of the buildings awoke to the sound of smoke alarms and a raging fire.
"It was a wall of black smoke," said Chris Beahn, 34, who lives on the top floor of 3334 16th St., one of the damaged buildings. "After I opened the front door, I couldn't see a foot in front of me, so I closed the door."
Beahn put on his shoes and jacket before grabbing his bag, rushing to the back door and scrambling to the roof. From there, he dashed to the rooftop of an adjacent building, where a firefighter led him down a ladder.
Paul Camarillo and his partner, Vincent Escareno, both 40, were asleep in their ground-floor apartment at 3320 16th St. when Camarillo awoke to a thundering sound.
"I knew there was a fire," he said. "I heard screaming. I looked out the back window and saw embers raining down from the sky."
They grabbed their year-old Maltese dogs, Tictac and Chicklet, and a couple of Escareno's paintings before running for the door.
"I saw a ball of flame out the back window," Escareno said.
As they rushed out, firefighters rushed in, ordering residents to evacuate. Firefighters rescued two women and two children from the third floor of 3320 16th St. as the wind pushed the flames across the building's flat tar roof.
"It went very quickly," Howes said. "The wind conditions there are really crazy."
Mission Dolores and its basilica, and neighboring Congregation Sha'ar Zahav synagogue, were not damaged because the wind blew the flames away from the buildings.
The Red Cross is housing 17 people chased from the buildings.
In addition to people, firefighters rescued a number of pets from the fire.
"I can't even count them," Howes said. "There were firefighters walking out with cats, rabbits, dogs."
One of the rabbits, a brown-and-white bunny named Conor, belongs to resident Ashley Lincoln, who had been forced to flee the blaze without him. She pleaded for firefighters to go back inside and rescue the rabbit.
A firefighter went inside the smoky apartment, found Conor munching rabbit food from his bowl and carried him to safety.
Some of the rescued animals were being housed at the city's Animal Care and Control shelter.
Investigators will spend days sifting through debris to determine where and how the fire started, Howes said.
Authorities said the fire was the largest in San Francisco since the 2002 Cannery fire near Fisherman's Wharf. That five-alarm fire started in the historic Haslett Warehouse and caused millions of dollars in damage.

Burning man Shade

Ahhh nice breeze, sun blaring, cold beer...ahhh Burning Man, my favorite place in the whole world. This year my camp and a few others are joining forces to create "Dusty Lady" a theme camp. I'm in charge of the shade structure. Here is my first sketch of it.

www.burningman.com

4th of July

After my crazy 3 week run, i wasn't really in the mood. so at about 9pm i went walking through my neighborhood. tons of people were lighting fireworks in the street. the air reeked of gun powder. I LOVE THAT. I made it to the top of Dolores Park just in time for the start of the SF City fireworks in the skyline. People in the parks were also blowing the place up. it was a lot of fun. then to the Castro for a drink and that's it. CHILL>

San Diego Trip 6 Days

So I went to San Diego to film Eon Film's The Dicks Of Hazard.

Oh the stories I have. So arrive in San Diego two hours late. Mind you I got up at 430 am to catch my obscene flight. Get there and we immediately start filming. Well kind of. We drive two hours to this unimpressive dirt road. We film there all day. 1 scene, supposed to film 2 or 3, this is the story throughout the week. It took all day because a model could not keep a hard on and had to have is boyfriend there while he was filming. SO FUCKING ANNOYING. Back at the Dirt road, we get locals yelling "fagot" at us. Gorilla filming is the worst. Most of the production takes place out side. 3 hours behind schedule on every little thing and never completing the days tasks.
The producer has me staying at his house instead of a hotel. Which would have been fine with me. Had the house been habitable. In the end I stay there. I end up having to buy my own bed sheets, the bed was disgusting. As well as toilet paper, food, water, condoms. Just about everything a good film company usually takes care of. But this was not a normal shoot by any means.
That night I return to find a cat sitting on my bed next to where it just shit. IM not surprised being that the cat box in the house for three cats looks like it hasn't been cleaned in weeks. Because I am such a clean freak and borderline OCD, I spent most of the week riddled with anxiety. I had to smoke pot constantly just to keep fro attacking someone.
Enough with the gory details of a bad production. On to the good.
There is a phenomenon called Porn Love, I will explain this in a later post called "On set, what its like" its currently a draft right now.
So I meet Alex Cross, another model. WOW. Those of you that know me, know that I almost never have sex with the same person twice. This was not the case with Alex. HOT HOT HOT. I am not big on sucking cock, but I could not get enough of his. It felt so good in my mouth . We ended up hooking up about 6 times. Yes he is that hot. Just my type. Former Military, Short, six pack, big dick, straight acting, pot smoking, morning beer drinker, and just plain hot. Not to mention very cool and chill. Alex is the only reason I stayed in San Diego through the worst production ever. Had Alex not been there I would have left on the second day. Alex and I are now planning open seeing each other again. He is even considering going to Burning Man with me. I don't think it will get serious though. Although I am not just chopping this up as "porn love" I am not ruling it out. It is a very powerful thing. But I still think about him daily. I also play a song that engulfs me with memories of the good times. To Alex: "Thank you so much, you are a really great guy and I am more than excited to see you again and to help you along on your porn career. I absolutely have to have you at least one more time."

Throughout the week I experience probably the most drama I have ever encountered. Between working with a ton of rookies, very fem queens, and the producer not having any organizational or hospitality skills. It has even taken me several days to cool down enough to write this. Nothing went right, NOTHING. Not even being paid went right.

The biggest rule when having people work for you is paying them on time. Workers/ Models should never have to worry about being paid or receiving a bad check. NEVER Oh yes it happened. The last day I was there a model Brent Summers, threw a 5 hour temper tantrum. I have never seen a model act so unprofessional, but then again I have never seen a producer act that unprofessional either. Brent is also the one who by mistake hit me in the head with a baseball bat while filming. OUCH my head hurt for three days after that.

Oh yes it gets worse. After returning home, the checks I received for my model fees BOUNCED. You have got to be fucking kidding me. I will end my remarks about Eon Films, at this time, by saying "I am very disappointed in the production conducted by Eon Films, I have never, as a model, been treated so poorly."

To the other people who made the trip bearable: Reba (you are awesome I hope to run into you in the future) Tyler mason (you are really cute, I am disappointed I didn't get to hook up with you, maybe another time.) jayden, Mario, Kyle Aimes, Ashton, Larry, Tom, Caleb, Adam Faust, Kyle Kensington ( you guys were a lot of fun, and I really enjoyed spending time with you. Let me know if you guys need any help finding more work.) Also props out to the guys at Price Video in Vegas and Q radio, (You guys are so funny. I cant wait to see you again in January.)

I'm sure the finished product of The Dicks of Hazard will be amazing, i just wish the filming of it was.

UPDATE: Here is the response to my blog from the Producer of Eon Films. I think he sums it all up.

RE: New Blog: Filming of The Dicks of Hazard in San Diego

BEGIN QUOTE
"Were you or were you not paid. In full. With bounced check fees. It would be nice if that was reflected. I was unaware you bought your own bed sheets. I had plenty on hand, if you needed them. However, you never asked for them. And I DID replace your bedspread when the cat used it for a litter box. And your bedsheets were fresh out of the wash the day you came to the room. I don't mind the blog at all. It is accurate and not really all that horrible. I just wish that you would include the fact that a lot of the bad situations you described were rectified. Rocky"

END QUOTE

Oh yes rocky you did make it all better. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!

Eon Films www.eonfilms.com
Alex Cross http://www.myspace.com/drucifer85
Tyler Mason www.tylermasonlive.com
Reba Rose Rau http://www.myspace.com/rebaroserau
Jayden Holloway http://www.myspace.com/deadoll84
Kyle Aames http://www.myspace.com/kyleaames
Caleb Carter http://www.myspace.com/cartersmonster
Ashton Ryan http://www.myspace.com/pornstarashtonryan
Q Radio http://www.qvegas.com/qradio.htm